My depressing weekend and Blue-est Monday

A long and depressing weekend... a long and depressing monday...

Have never felt so down before! All kind of events happened on the same day, same period of time. Feel so lost, so demoralised.

Through these events, I realised that communications are indeed, super ultimate important! Relationship with your friends and colleagues are as important as well!

After talking to one of my close friends, I learnt something about myself too... actually, something that I keep avoiding and taking it for granted for so long... It is not easy to overcome it, but I will constantly and consiously keep in mind... I will be more ____... I also told this friend something that I can't share with many of you... something that I do not want to share... so please dun ask me k...

Some emo questions that I keep thinking for the past days...

Who is Terence?
What kind of person is he?
What things he likes?
Where is his love resides on?
What kind of future will this man holds?
When can he ever get more money?
When can he start to save without spending that much?

I would say that I started out my OX year in a mess! My room is in a mess. My dance project is in a mess. My career is in a mess. My money management is in a mess... I blame all to the fact that I do not have a tidy room... and I hope that now, I can have a better life...

By the way, I went to Shangri La Loh Hei Luncheon with my manager. And I won the first prize lucky draw! One weekend stay at Shangri La Singapore Club floor! Yea... I think this is the only thing I am happy about...

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This year, I have made a few major decisions... trying to make my life filled up more with activities. Example, I have took up a Jap course, is something all along I wanted to do so... So since there is an opportunity, I grab it fast and paid for it.

I have also trying to expose myself to more dance classes. Not only for better well being, but also to keep feeling younger by dancing... I am not very young liao le... is 26 this year!

I have also being involving in some training, trying to prove another side of me. Trying to explore deeper and bring some talent out from myself. I wanna see what it will lead me to... It is not easy to commit on this training since it is a twice weekly thing and is somewhere very very far. But still, I wanna try and see. I really wanna test myself out. I really want to. Many comments from many people. And I really appreciate those who gave me valuable comments. I will take it seriously and go ahead with this training with lots of caution.

I have also been trying very hard to keep fit in the gym. See some results, will continue to work on it and hope to get my abs soon.

U may wonder why I did not continue to post on NYC. Why a sudden summary of what I am doing now... Stres... lots of stress... Unneccessary stress... irelevant worries... unjustifiable actions...

Perhaps... I really never sit down and think back of myself. What is my goal in life, why am I still single for so long. Is there a prob with me? I know there are many good one out there. Some even expressed but I choose to act blur... expectation too high? Many told me this. I started to doubt myself... I started to think... why am I so packed with day in day out activites... are all these stuff really neccessary? Do I really need to work so hard to get the body I want? DO I really need to dance so much yet dunno how to move on to the next level? Do I really need to take up a Jap course? Why do I want to put myself thru all these? A life filled with activites... is this really I want? or is this something that I want to do to numb myself from reflecting myself? Whenever when I am alone... all kind of thoughts just start to flood my mind... even myself haven't figure it out... I am still following my heart... still... slowly... taking my time... lots of questions... but I guess... one day... one day... it will reveal by itself...

Laughters and smiles are what you see in Terence... is this Terence?

Terence wants to blog again...

It has been a very very long time ever since I left this blog with my last post. Thank you those people who have been visiting this boring blog site for the past years.

I have decided to make this blog as exciting and interesting as it was previously. But first, I need to wait for my new desktop purchase. Reason being the current laptop that I am using now is too laggy, and thus I cannot use my photoshop program where I can edit nice photos together. I will be getting my desktop soon... I promise!

Till then, please give me a few more days to start blogging eversince I stopped for so long.

See u soon!

Recent Updates

Have not being blogging for quite some time. And I know that the "loosing ends" spelling mistake.. lol... thanks for those who constantly remind me about it.

Helene and her family
A few days back, Helene and her family web cam with me from Strasbourg, France. That was so damn happening manz! The sad thing was that I do not have a web cam, therefore I can only see them and they can't see me. Think I gonna get one soon... How I wish I can visit them some day in the near future... Hmmm.. must plan to make it happen! Perhaps a backpack kind? haha... anyone wants to go?

Test and Proj
Last 2 weeks were damn terrible! Probability test almost drove me crazy! Now still dunno the result yet. Then right after the test, stayed for 2 nights with my project mates to finish up the first system release! We then went for the presentation with no sleep at all! So damn shag and "blank" at that time. And wanna thanks to those who had helped though these difficult times... yuhua... and some of my proj mates... not all... :X

Dance
Finally, went to studio wu for my first dance class! haha.. after so long of saying wanting to go... I bought the package and thus will go more frequently.. hopefully I can manage my time better.

New Car
My uncle/god grandfather has changed a new car... Nissan Sunny... I think he really like Nissan... ha.. coz the previous one was the same brand but different model for this new car. The car is quite nice and I hope I can use more often before I get myself mine! hee... Hope that it wouldn't be too long from now.

Cousin's wedding
My cousin is getting married this coming friday... And I will be his brother le... So far the clothes I have already prepared... and nothing else i think... this thursday will go for a meeting with him... see what is my jobscope like. Becoz of this, I will be missing a day lesson on friday.. haiz.. I have been skipping lessons for these few days... coz too much work to be done!

Thats all for now... take care my friends!

Loosing end

I had many bad days and experiences lately... so bad that I am thinking whether I am loosing all my friends and myself... I have not been contacting many of my friends for soooo long... Isolating myself in projects and study... I am so sick of my life right now!

Since this my blog is not private... I shall not mention in specific... I have been trying hard to find the way back. There are these thoughts and feelings which I think are not healthy at all.. thinking there is still a long way to go, it is really hard to survive through... Some of the ways I tried are to be Mr nice guy... tyring to help this and that... At times I will try to be a joker... create jokes and laughter... In return... I was treated like an idiot with zero intelligence kind. Haiz... I think I just have to bare with it man...

For friends out there... pls dun forget me and pls pardon me for not hanging out with you for so long... And lets remember this... dun take your friends for granted... if they are true to you... pls make it better in return. Though it is easy to be said than done... lets put that extra effort in doing so...

Ending... starting...

Can u guess what is going to end and start at the same time?

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My holiday is going to end... and my last sem is going to start soon...

At this point of time... I really miss those days that BBC and I spent in Taipei.. shop shop shop and eat eat eat... so fun and relac... And also Japan... so fun! I have learnt many nice things abt japanese and also their patience over little little things... these exercising of patience can really help me to look things in another perspective and learnt to appreciate more... hopefully... haha... And also phuket! The food posioning incident and the fun there with my cousin... my cousin and I can really entertain ourselves man... haha... So much fun!

As my Hong Kong trip, which is on this coming wed, is drawing nearer and nearer, I am getting excited and happy! This time round I not going with my passengers, not BBC, not my cousin, but Bond59! Though Kelvin will not be going with us due to his busy schedule, we will still think about him when we are there.

These few days I have been busy going to my friends' bday party, busking practices, gym (though still.. haiz... dun mention) and final yr project workshop.

Let me first toke abt Eleen's bday... I must say her bday was a great success. Coz I can see everyone enjoyed himself very much. Though she kept telling us that her other friends are rather quiet type, but when it comes to games... her frens were really sporty and fun! And I think Eleen had enjoyed herself very much and loved her presents!!! This is the first time I see a bday gal received so many vouchers from so many shops and restaurants. Ha... actually wanted to ask her to share with us... but she must be very fishmongor and use them all for herself! Maybe her bf will not benefit from it also.. haha... joking ah... Anyway in her bday... many of us discovered many new things and then we started bitching others haha... so long nv lepak like that liao... lets do it again when is matt's bday k. its 24 Aug! (Not his bday la... just that his bday celebration is delayed as all of us are too busy! haha... actual bday: 10 Aug). Anyway _ _ _ _ _ _ _ let grace know liao... for those who are not updated... haha... I was shocked when the decision was made... haha so sudden! Then I also kanna many embrassing situations... esp the intro one.. damn pai sei... haha... will keep contact... haha... JIAN... scolding myself...

As for my busking practices... I enjoyed myself coz Candy's chero is really very nice... I would say very her lo... haha... but really very nice and cool! Very technique! gd! I will definately try my best and hope that on the actual day dun forget steps... Stress! for the time being...

Gym! haiz... i think I ate too much la... no effect and my tummy simply getting worst... haha... nvm... after hong kong then carry on work on it... haha.. everytime say that!!! so sick of myself! haha... cannot make it.

FYP workshop... this workshop is supposed to be a preperation thingy before the sem commenced. For now, rather stressed by the amount of things to learn by ourselves and the marathon against time to complete the project... a bit overstress. But I think this stress is rather a good one... coz it actually will determine how much effort and worries I am going to put in for this project when I am back from HK.

Eleen and those who have the photos for eleen's bday.. pls send them to me!!! XIE XIE!

Hope that this HK trip will be as fun as Europe or even better... and hope that my FYP will not kill me... see ya!

My 14 July day

Today... I must say... is a tough day for me... Morning I woke at at 8am for tution and then follow by busking practice at 10.30. Follow that, I went to Cali to take a shower before meeting Bond59 for Harry Porter at 2pm show. After which, we had a long discussion, or rather a discussion trying to accomodate each and everyone constraint. This discussion is about where to have our dinner. Eventually we went for Speggedies (Duuno got spell the restaurant name wrongly anot). Surprisingly, the food there was very nice! Think will most likely go back again! We had a long chat and I actually dozed off but no one spot me doing that haha! After which, I went to buy a cake for my cousin's bday celebration at Pump room later on... During the partying, I was totally self-entertained... haha... coz my cousin was busying entertaining her guests ma... so understandable.

For the whole bloody day, the passengers keep calling me to ask regarding Typhoon in Japan... Is totally understandable their worries and concerns... After trying to reassure them that so far no problem with our journey and we will follow our plan as usual... One of them can still ask me to call the manager to see whether got any latest news anot... I almost wanna Fark her upside down man... Who the hell will know exactly whether Tokyo will be affected but the tyhoon tomolo morning??? And I felt so silly calling my manager at 10.30pm and asking this stupid question as if he was the weather predictor like that... haiz... dunno wat to say... weather this kind of thing can only predict ma... how to accurately tell you le???

Actually, most importantly, I realised something today... And the processing of realising it was tough and tedious for me... coz I was tired and lack of sleep... so a bit frasturated at times. Therefore, I keep telling myself is all because I was tired... lack of sleep... thats y angry and upset abt certain things... But sometimes... certain little stuff can let me realise, or rather understand myself and people around me better. You may not understand what I am trying to say here... thats my purpose of doing so... hahaha... coz I am not going to specifically say out these feelings and thoughts to anyone. So dun bother come and ask me ya! hee...

Anyway pls pray for a fine weather for me in Japan... last one liao.. please be a good and safe one! Wish me luck!

My lazy Student

I almost vomitted blood today!!! This student of mine has been with me for almost 1 yr plus I think... He will NEVER complete the homework I tasked him to do! NEVER OK! Not even once for all these time! Every session, I will spend 15 mins to scold him for not doing homework and I am so sick of him! The only reason for me to keep teaching him is for the tuition fee only!

This student is not only LAZY! But also a freaking LIAR! He can come out with all sort of reasons for not doing his homework! One time, he said he lost his pencil case, then cannot do my homework! WTF rite... can't he just get a pen else where and start doing??? U mean no pencil case means no need go exams!??!!?!!?! OMG... last week, I punished him for not knowing wat is prime numbers and factors. Coz this syllabus was taught in the begining of the yr. Yet he dunno at all now! So I asked him to write the definition for both 100 times! Today, he can come and tell me he lost that piece of paper! WTF! So before I left, I wrote them again and pasted it on his cupboard... make sure he do it!

I bought some assessment books for him to do along when he went to China with his family. But I forgot to tear the answers script out. Guess wat.. today when I marked his book... 100% correct! I threw those books on him... and he still dare to deny for the first time when I asked him to confess! Wat a student rite... kaoz!!!!

Really.. not because of the money! I will never continue with him! he is such a demoralising thing for all the tutors out there! Before I forget, I will call his father to tell him about his son's act!!! Bad child, bad student!

Chans and friends

Yea... finally Guo Hao and Hui Yee are back from Europe! Today, Yuhua, Shiyong, Kelvin and I went to pick them up at the airport. We went to have an Indonesian dinner and also some desserts at the foodcourt and finally ended up at Coffee Bean.

From the Chans, we got a brief understanding on the lifestyle and culture of Italy and Rome. And I guess we had lots to toke again when we see their photos one day. So exciting to see the photos la...

Most importantly, the Chans brought everyone of us a great surprise! They bought us LV! Yes... is LV! For myself, I got a passport holder coz they know that I wanna go for Air Steward... So a passport holder will be the best present for me. And I really love it. Coz I also have been thinking of owning one... but just that too ex to have one. hee... Previously, I placed my passport in a transparent plastic bag and just carry with me around... so whenever I need to take my passport, I will need to discretely put my hands into my bag, then remove the plastic bag before taking out the passport. Haha... so unglam rite... but now... no need liao lo!

And I guess the other 3 who recevied the presents must be damn happy. Especially yuhua... coz she got the organiser one... she is really very happy about it. Coz this is one of the stuff she has been longing for...

Tml I will be flying off to Japan liao... And because of all these oversea thingy... I found that I have some how lost some touch with my friends... I got this weird feeling when meeting some of my friends... Some how I have miss out something and thus being outcast... Hmm... the feeling is definately not very good. There is something I wanna say... but i think better not... hmm... So my dear friends out there... be more kind to me pls.... hee.

For the last trip in Japan, I really enjoyed my tour. At the same time, whenever I see something... I will think of my friends. For example,
when I see LV, I will think of yuhua.
When I see Polo T, I will think of Ah fat.
When I see chocolates and sweets, I will think of Hui yee.
When I see badminton stuff, I will think of Shiyong.
When I see jersey, esp yellow, orange or red colors one, I will think of Kelvin. When I see very interesting necklace, I will think of my cousin.
When I see "" magazines, I will think of buying one for Matt.
When I see addidas stuff, I will think of winnie.
When I see caps, I will think of Linda.
When I see gold color bags and purse, I will think of Korin.
When I see sponch bob, I will think of Eleen.
When I see black choc, I will think of Joe.
And there are many of you out there that I will definatley think of u when I see something relating to u.... ok. U may think that I abit bo liao saying so many things like that.

Just wanna let u, my friend, know that we are friends forever! Always!